angel_shards

Here you go, Shiro. This chapter was a task for me to write, meh. I hate this one -.-'

Copyrights: All characters, settings, weaponry, and magic in this story belong to Square-Enix.

Chapter 2: The Thirteenth Order

The interior of the building was large and gave an air of foreboding. Each hallway was long and the ceiling stretched high. There also seemed to be absolutely no shadows in any of the corners of the walls, or even below the glass tables. Much like the room I had been housed in, much of the inside was white: the floors, the walls, and some of the items that were fashioned to decorate the place and give it a bit of life. However, here and there, there were a few other colours introduced in order to “spice” the place up. Pillars that stretched at least twenty, or more, feet towards the ceiling were a stone grey, and there were also splashes of ice blue, square patterns on the marbled floors. Overall, the total appearance wasn’t one that was meant to be inviting. Though, it was mystifying and somewhat intriguing. Who was this group of people that dwelt within these walls and what was their purpose?

Led from my room –now, I’m assuming it was my room- the journey to meet these people, who I believed had brought me here, was a silent one. The tapping of our feet upon the marble floor could be heard echoing only briefly off the walls as I followed Axel down the long hallway. I didn’t say a word to him and he didn’t try to make conversation with me. This made me feel completely and utterly alone. I once again felt as though I was trapped; a prisoner of war. It was then I knew that I would never leave this place.

An eternity of wandering down the long hallways and up white, marble stairs finally led us to the end of a corridor. The fiery-haired enigma halted before a set of large, heavy looking doors before he turned to face me for the first time since we’d left the room. “Well,” he said unenthusiastically, “here we are. You ready, kid?”

Frowning, I gazed up and down the white, ominous doors. I wasn’t sure exactly what I should be ready for, but I nodded all the same and waited for Axel to open the doors. Grabbing hold of the iron handle, the man pulled the door open effortlessly and stood aside, allowing me to enter first. It was then that fear gripped my body; fear of the unknown. What was it that waited for me beyond those doors? Would there be some horrible test for me to pass, and if I failed it should I be killed? This was an organization, one that was never heard of before, and with good reason too probably. As these thoughts and fantasies ran through my head I stood rooted to the spot, just staring through the door into the unknown.

“Are you going in or what?” Axel snapped, bringing me back to reality. Shaken out of my thoughts, I glanced up quickly at the man, before forcing myself to step forward and through the door. If I was nervous before, I was intimidated now; in the centre of the large room was a circle of thirteen ceramic chairs with, what looked like at first glance, ten people sitting in them. Each person was decked out in the same black attire, I found without surprise. It was then that my earlier suspicion was confirmed: I was becoming part of an organization that I would not be able to back out of.

The door behind me shut with a dull thud as Axel entered the room, standing at my back. I didn’t acknowledge his presence; instead I surveyed the small group. Counting quickly, once again, I made note that there were ten people that occupied the thirteen chairs. The group looked to be male dominated with only one woman in their midst, and many of them looked to be in their near thirties and older. The only person who looked to be closer to my own age was a young man with messy, blue hair that covered the left portion of his young face. This would have lifted my spirits only slightly if he hadn’t appeared to look so unnerved by my presence. I recoiled inside myself, feeling unwelcome as ten pairs of cold eyes glanced my way. But there was no place for me to hide and certainly nowhere to run.

“Welcome, Roxas,” someone shattered the uncomfortable silence in addressing me. I looked up to see who spoke to me, and when my eyes rested on the owner of the strange sounding voice I couldn’t help but stare in shock. Sitting at, what I had guessed, was the head of the circle was a man wearing an eye-patch over his hard, chiseled face that bore a long scar stretching across his left cheek, probably from battles he had in his earlier days. His one, yellow eye stared right at me with cold amusement and I had to cast my gaze away. This got a chuckle out of the elder man. “Why don’t you come and have a sit, neh? Make yourself comfortable.”

For a moment or two I didn’t move; too nervous to do anything. But feeling a gentle shove from Axel, still standing behind me, I started myself forward. I held my breath. I could feel all their eyes on me, watching every move that I made. I don’t know why, but they all made me so nervous. I was amongst a group of elite people and a part of me wanted to prove myself to them. Right now I was the outsider and I felt that I had to somehow prove my worthiness to them, in one way or another. Making my way past the chairs, I stiffly crossed the diameter of the circle towards the large, empty ceramic chair to the left of the scarred man. All the while, trying to ignore their glances, I kept my gaze upon that seat that seemed much higher than the rest. I didn’t think anything of it and when I reached it I prepared myself to sit on it.

“Not there!” the enigma suddenly snapped. His voice was booming and, startled, I leapt back and away from the seat. From behind me I could hear the cold, high-pitched laughter of the blonde-haired woman. I was too embarrassed to glance at her, so I continued to stare at the scarred man in alarm. I could feel my face flushing. “No one sits there.”

“Hey, take it easy on him,” I heard Axel say behind me. Tentatively, I turned to glance at the red-haired man as he sat down in his own seat between a man who resembled a snake, with blue hair and another young looking man with blonde hair that was cut short in the font, but kept long in the back. Though Axel’s voice was light he starred at the enigma sharply.

Taken slightly aback, the scarred man relaxed. Stretching his head to the side as he cracked his neck loudly, making my skin crawl. “That is the Superior’s seat. You may sit there.” He indicated to an empty chair to the left of the one reserved for the one he called the ‘Superior.’ That title stilled a lump in my throat. The name was metallic and severe; the Superior must have been a man who had great strength, swift, and cunning. From the reaction the scarred man had given me, upon sitting on his chair, an enigma that meant business and not to be taken lightly. I would have to be careful to stay out of his way.

Swallowing hard, I took a few nervous steps towards my own chair and sat down on it, seated beside the blonde-haired woman with the cold laugh. It wasn’t comfortable in the least that was for sure. It was hard and cold, only adding to my goose bumps. I had thought that leaning back against the tall back post of the chair would help to improve comfort, but it did little to help my posture. Though I felt extremely awkward in this position, as I gazed about the room I noted all the other members sat in the same manner, with their chests pushed out, their back tall. Eventually I would have to get used to sitting like this, so I decided I’d better start now.

“Now, I’m sure you’re curious as to why you’re here,” the scarred man started, once I was seated and somewhat comfortable. I said nothing so he continued. “We are the Thirteenth Order; a group of elites whose purpose is to study and unlock the secrets of the Heart. We are Nobodies. That is, we are beings who do not possess Hearts ourselves. We aren’t supposed to exist: the Non Existent Ones. We lost our Hearts, a long time ago, when we first began to conduct our experiments, but we were strong enough to exist the way we are now; mere shells of the people we once were. Although we are still curious as to the mysteries surrounding the Heart, our goal is to one day reclaim our lost Hearts from the place we’d discovered all Hearts to be born: Kingdom Heart.”

Kingdom Hearts.

For what felt like a good five minutes, though I’m sure it was only seconds, I sat in silence trying to comprehend all that the scarred man had told me. So I was a Nobody, just as Axel had said? I wasn’t supposed to exist. For that reason alone was why I was now a member of the organization called ‘The Thirteenth Order.’ A dizzying feeling descended upon me, and now more than ever before I felt at a complete loss. I wasn’t supposed to exist… I felt as though I was trapped in a strange nightmare, one that held me tightly in its iron-like grasp and would never let go. Over and over, I desperately told myself to wake up until I forced myself to face the awful truth: this was reality. I couldn’t catch my breath.

“This is a shock to you, I’m sure,” he continued, starring at me. I didn’t have to look up to know he was amused by my anxiety; I could hear it in his strange voice. Beside me, I could feel the woman smiling in glee. She was enjoying this thoroughly, but I did not want to give her –or anyone else- that satisfaction. Trying to regain what composure I had left, I straightened up, glancing at each member quickly before returning my gaze at the man, who was indeed smiling with cold amusement in my direction.

“So,” I started meekly, “my Heart is trapped in… Kingdom Hearts?” It felt so strange to say.

“Well, not exactly. Your birth, compared to ours, was most unnatural.”

“What do you mean?”

“I am not of a position to give you that information.”

Now I was angry. “And why not?” I snapped, beginning to rise to my feet. However, I stopped myself in mid motion, seeing the warning glance from Axel. Gripping the arms of the chair I sat back down, staring intently at the scarred man. I wanted answers, but I doubted whether I would receive the ones I wanted to hear.

“You would do well to not speak out of turn, Roxas,” he said coolly. His one golden eye narrowed in my direction, so that I once again felt small. “You are Number Thirteen and will not speak to I, Number Two, in such a manner. Is that understood?” Put in my place I nodded forcefully. “Good.”

Once that was settled I was briefly introduced to each member of the Thirteenth Order in order of the highest-ranking number to the lowest. The scarred man, who was second in command, was Xigbar; able to control the power of Time he fought with laser guns. He had a strange accent when he spoke and it was sometimes hard for me to understand what he was said. Xaldin, a tall, broad man with long, black hair kept in thick braids controlled the power of Wind and wielded six spears. Beside him was a sallow-looking elder man with long, dirty-blonde hair. He had no emotion in his cold eyes. That was Vexen a man of science who wielded the power of Ice. Lexaeus was the name of a burly man beside Vexen. He had a hard, chiseled face with small, dark eyes; within him was the power of Earth. The young-looking enigma that had given me the cold glance when I’d entered the room was Zexion; his power was that of Shadow. Seventh was Saix, the man who resembled a snake. I felt a shiver run through me as I looked upon him. He was able to control the gravitational powers of the Moon. Then, of course, there was the fiery-haired enigma that was Axel. His features reminded me of a cat: he was cunning and sly, able to wield the power of Fire. Demyx used the element of Water and wielded a Sitar as his weapon of choice. Seated beside him sat an elder-looking man; his icy-blue eyes starred directly at me and he scratched his clean-cut chin as though he was studying my every move. His name was Luxord and I later found out he treated everything in life as a game. A mass of fluffy-brown hair belonged to Marluxia. There was an air about him that made me uneasy. I didn’t know what it was, but there was a gleam in his eyes that sought for power and domination of all. The twelfth, and only female, member of the organization was Larxene. Already I didn’t like her. She had a cold nature and found pleasure in tormenting others. Those were all the members of the Order except for the Superior and…

“And you, Roxas, are number Thirteenth. The Discovered Key. You are a very important member of our organization,” Xigbar said.

“I don’t understand.” Why was I such an important member of their group of elites? Other than the fact that I was a mere shell, just like them, there wasn’t anything incredibly special about me. As far as I knew I didn’t wield any weapon nor did I possess a special ability. What’s more, I had no idea why I was continuously referred to as the ‘Discovered Key.’

“Oh? Well, then perhaps this will allow you to understand a little bit better.”

Xigbar nodded in Axel’s direction and, taking his cue, the red-haired enigma stood up lazily. Puzzled, I watched as he sauntered in my direction until he stopped about five feet in front of me. What happened next greatly alarmed and frightened me. Extending his hands up and out to his sides, there was a clap like thunder and in seconds two large spiked wheels – Chakram- appeared in his gloved hands. Raising his head, he looked at me and I saw amusement flash in his aqua eyes. From what I could tell her was going to hurt me –or kill me- and he was going to thoroughly enjoy it. Frightened, I pushed myself up against the back of the white chair in a pathetic attempt to make myself smaller and maybe even disappear. Stepping towards me, the fiery man crossed his one hand over his chest and, taking another, swung downwards with the spikey-wheel. Time seemed to slow down, and it wasn’t due to Xigbar’s Time-bending ability. The instinct to live –to survive- awoke within me. In those moments before the Chakram hit me I felt a strange, warm sensation in the tips of my fingers and as I brought my hands up to block the attack something very strange happened. There was a bright flash of light and my hands grasped tightly around the handles of two large weapons, which I had crossed above me, blocking Axel’s Chakram. The metallic song of the weapons hitting sang throughout the room.

Grinning, the fiery-haired man took a step away from me, lowering his weapons to his sides. It was just a test –a rouse- to try and get me to make sense of my purpose within the organization. Attempting to get over my shock I lowered my dual-weapons to eye-level. They were very strange looking weapons for they both resembled overlarge keys. One was black as the night and looked cruel, a weapon born out of the Darkness. The other was the complete opposite: it was a white, angelic weapon that had beauty and promises tied to it. Each weapon was both, surprisingly, light and not a struggle to wield. As I gazed upon them in wonder I could hear the murmurs of my fellow enigmas around me.

“Now do you see, Roxas?” Xigbar asked.

“I see,” I started slowly. Clearly, I could see the weapons I held, but it still made no sense to me. “But I still don’t understand.”

One who knows nothing can understand nothing…

Those words echoed in my in head. I hadn’t heard them before, but they sounded so familiar, as though I had heard them once from a far-off memory…

The scarred enigma chuckled, closing his eyes and shaking his head. Boy, did I ever feel ignorant. “In time you will, Number Thirteen. In time you will. But for now, we have much work to do.”

Alright, so I am in the same boat as Shiro: just can't seem to find very good Roxas fanfic! Well, this -and SE's storyline of the poor boy- has made me very sad. So, I have taken it upon me to write a Roxas fanfic! YAY! -dances- It takes place from the time of his 'birth' until.....well....you know -sobs hysterically- I HATE YOU, NOMURA!!!!!! Anyways, here is Roxas' story. Shiro, I hope it is worthy enough for you eyes.

Copyrights: All characters, settings, weaponry, and magic in this story belong to Square-Enix.

Stained Glass
Amy Nazarewich

Chapter 1: A Most Unnatural Birth

I awoke in the dark, gasping for breath. A cold sweat dripped off every inch of my naked body. I was gasping for my breath. The place where I was in –I think it was a room of some sort- was an endless abyss of darkness, but I could feel the cold floor below me. Where was I? How did I get here? These and an assortment of a million others questions raced through my foggy mind as I strained to remember anything that might come to mind before I opened my eyes to the darkness.

There was nothing.

I gasped for breath.

Swallowing hard, I picked myself up, now kneeling upon the cold, hard ground that was below me. My straining eyes sought for any light in the pitch-dark room. There wasn’t any. A cold shudder of dread ran through me. Was I… dead? No. No, I couldn’t be! I was alive, I was… Empty. Yes. Empty. Though I strongly believed that I was not deceased –to the point of near hysterics- I could not ignore that empty feeling inside of me. What was it? What was I missing? Oh! The questions hurt my head, and he curled back towards the ground, feeling the slow pull of insanity begin to grip me.

But just as the grip of madness began to start its work on me a door opened from the overwhelming darkness and light spilled into the room, chasing away all the shadows and all the dread; all the insanity that threatened to fill my very being. As the door opened fully into the room I blinked in the light of the outside. It was so bright –so powerful- that it was hard to keep focus. And then I realized, as the light filled the once dark room, that I was naked and I became ashamed. Desperately, I tried to hide my indecent presence from whoever it was that opened the door. Then suddenly I felt what could be guessed as robes, or a heavy blanket, draped around my shoulders and drawn down to cover me.

“Do not be afraid,” came a deep, commanding voice as two pairs of unknown hands helped me to my feet. “You are amongst kin.”

Blinking past the brightness, my eyes now slowly adjusting to the light, I was now able to make out a dark, hooded figure silhouetted against the light. I could see nothing, save for a smile-less mouth below his hood. Though his deep voice had held kindness, I knew there was no love within it. If that wasn’t enough to dampen my already low spirits, his use of the word ‘kin’ brought me slightly lower. It gave the impression that I was simply a person like himself, and whoever else dwelt within these walls; there was no platonic love in this structure.

“Please!” I gasped, as the pair of unknown hands led me towards the door and passed the enigma who stood aside from it, allowing us to pass. “Where am I? Why am I here?”

“All in good time, Roxas,” the man said. Roxas. Somehow, though I hadn’t heard of it before, I recognized the name to be my own. Silenced, I stared dumbly up at the man who called me name. “Right now you require rest. Birth is a stressful, overwhelming event. Especially a birth as significant as yours.”

“I don’t under- “

“All in good time. All I good time…”

The remnants of the enigma’s dream-like voice echoed within my head even after he disappeared silently from sight. I had started forward after this, but then the sensation of falling overwhelmed me and I could feel myself sliding forward. If it were not for the hands that held on to me so steadily, I would have fallen on my face. I wanted to thank them, but my vision clouded and my mind became as black as that room.

†††

I awoke again, this time in a white room. My eyes stung when they opened, overwhelmed by the brightness that spilled into them. With a jolt, I sat up straight and gasped for my breath. Trying to steady my breathing, I gazed about the angelic room. Every inch of it was white, from the marbled floors, to the ceramic walls and glass pillars. A glass table on the opposite side of the room, decorated with a vase of white-roses was colourless as well. Even the bed I noted, looking down to see what I lay upon, was completely white. Where was I moved to now, and for how much longer would I be alone with only my thoughts to drive me back to the brink of insanity?

And that’s when I noticed the only thing that was out of place in this room was me. Having to make a double take I gazed at my body, which was no loner naked but decked out in completely black attire. It must have been when I was asleep, but I was now wearing a long, heavy leather trench coat that must have been cut to just above my ankles. It was warm and fitting, but not too terribly tight. Underneath this I was wearing a pear of dark, loose-fitting pants, which were, covered to just above my knee by a pair of thick, strong boots. Marveling at my outfit, it looked like I was part of some type of organization.

“Do you like them?” came a smooth voice from the corner. Twisting my head around to look at who was there, I gazed at the corner of the room to my left and saw a man standing there, with his arms folded across his chest as he lay nonchalantly against the ceramic wall. By the looks of him, I guessed his age to be about in his early twenties. A wild, mane of red-hair jutted out from his head, which made him look like a lion. His eyes, so keen and focused with two triangular tattoos below them, looked even more like the features of a feline. As I surveyed this man from head to toe I realized he was dressed in the same garb I was, which lead me to believe that perhaps I really was part of some organization.

When I didn’t answer, the red-haired man pushed himself off from the wall and sauntered towards me. “No ‘thank you’? Isn’t it better than what you had before?” Here, I could feel the temperature rise in my face, and I knew I had been blushing with furious embarrassment, for the cat-like man smiled at this jeer. To my surprise, however, he waved it off. “Don’t sweat it, kid. You weren’t the only one in that position, if memory does serve me right.

“My name is Axel.”

“Umm… hi,” I said uncertainly, finding my voice. I knew it was rude, but I couldn’t help but gawk at this man who stood before me, staring at me with his hypnotic aquamarine eyes. “I-I’m Roxas,” I was finally able to stammer.

“Ah, yes. ‘The Discovered Key’.”

Now I was confused.

“Excuse me?”

“That’s who you are. Roxas: The Discovered Key.” It sounded so simple.

My mind shut down right then. I didn’t even know how to respond to this. It made no sense, no matter how I tried to work it out. I just couldn’t find any logical explanation as to what it meant, or how they knew my name, or how I even got here in the first place!

“I’m sorry,” I said uncertainly, rising from the bed, “I don’t know what you’re talking about. I don’t even know where I am or why I’m here…” I bit my lip, feeling defeated. “What is going on?”

“Those are all very good questions! And, seeing as no one has even bothered to check up on the newest addition to our ‘Happy Family of Nobodies’ I guess it’s my job to tell you.”

Nobodies? What the hell was that supposed to mean? However, I stopped myself from asking Axel the meaning of that word, guessing he would hopefully tell me during his explanation of my being here. I sat back down upon the bed. He crossed the centre of the room, stopping just in front of the bed not even looking at me. As patiently as I could, I waited for him to begin.

“You’re here, simply because you’re one of us: a Nobody.”

I waited for him to continue. He turned around to face me, a strange smile on his face. Nothing. Was that it!?

“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” I demanded, rolling my hands into tight, angry fists on the bed. “What do you mean I’m a Nobody?”

“Ha ha, easy there, killer,” the fiery-haired man waved his hands at me. I could tell he was really enjoying this. “You know, you really need to lighten up, neh?

“What I mean is that you are non-existent; you aren’t supposed to exist,” this he offered as a simple explanation. I only stared at him blankly. “You don’t have a Heart.”

“What?”

He was becoming a little frustrated with my lack of comprehension. Sighing forcefully, he’d grabbed the side of his head, pulling at his mane-like hair. So what? I woke up in this strange place, with no memory where the hell I was before all of this. I deserved to milk all the knowledge I could from this bozo.

“Okay! Look; you don’t have Heart. There is nothing beating inside your chest. You. Are. Empty!” he said each word loudly and clearly. “Thus the term Nobody. You are not supposed to exist because you are a mere shell of the person you once were. Non-Existent.”

“That’s not true!” I growled at him, jumping off the bed in anger. My body shook and I clenched my fists even tighter. It couldn’t be true! How was it possible? What the enigma had just said made absolutely no sense. But still there was that nagging voice in my head suggesting that what he said could very well be true.

“I hate the be the bearer of bad news, kid,” he laughed, looking at me in mild amusement, “but the fact is you are a Nobody, just like us.”

Like us?

“You still don’t believe me, do you? You knew from the moment you awoke that something was different about you. You felt empty inside. Isn’t that proof enough that you have no Heart?”

Angrily, I averted my eyes from the fiery-haired man. I didn’t want to believe him. However, I could not fight the painful truth of what he’d just said. When I had awoken I had felt that something was amiss, and though I could place it then I could definitely tell what that missing feeling was: I had no Heart beating inside my chest.

“How?” I asked defeated, looking back up to Axel helplessly. “How did this happen?”

“That,” he said knowingly, crossing towards the door, “is something that you will have to find out on your own.” He stopped just before the white door, opening it and standing aside. “Come on. They’re dying to meet you.”

Havn't been on in....forever. Anywho, now I'm a myspace whore.

http://www.myspace.com/misfitamy

MAKE ONE TOO. That means you, DH and Crem (if you're reading).

By the way, DH, I really want to talk to you soon, kk? You're never on :(

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!

Dear Tarja,
It`s time to choose whether the story of Nightwish ends here or whether it will still continue an undetermined period of time. We`ve been working with this creation for 9 years and we are not ready to give up yet. Nightwish is a way of life, something to live for, and we`re certain we can`t let it go.

Equally certain is the fact that we cannot go on with you and Marcelo any longer. During the last year something sad happened, which I`ve been going over in my head every single day, morning and night. Your attitude and behavior don`t go with Nightwish anymore. There are characteristics I would never have believed to see in my old dear friend.
People who don`t talk with each other for a year do not belong in the same band.

We are involved in an industry where the business-side of things is a necessary evil and something to worry about all the time. We are also a band which has always done music from the heart, because of friendship and the music itself. The mental satisfaction should always be more important than money! Nightwish is a band, it`s an emotion.
To you, unfortunately, business, money, and things that have nothing to do with those emotions have become much more important. You feel that you have sacrificed yourself and your musical career for Nightwish, rather than thinking what it has given to you.
This attitude was clearly shown to me in the two things you said to me in an airplane in Toronto: ”I don`t need Nightwish anymore.” and ”Remember, Tuomas, that I could leave this band at any time, giving you only one day`s warning in advance”.
I can`t simply write any more songs for you to sing.

You have said yourself that you are merely a ”guest musician” in Nightwish. Now that visit ends and we will continue Nightwish with a new female vocalist.
We`re sure this is an equally big relief to you as it is for us. We have all been feeling bad long enough.

You told us that no matter what, the next Nightwish album will be your last one. However, the rest of us want to continue as long as the fire burns. So there`s no sense in doing that next album with you, either.
The four of us have been going over this situation countless times and we have realized that this is the thing we want to do in life. It´s all we can do. In December 2004, in Germany, you said that you will never tour again for more than two weeks at a time. You also said that we can forget about U.S. and Australia because the fees and the sizes of venues are too small.

In interviews I`ve mentioned that if Tarja leaves, that would be the end of the band. I understand that people will think this way. Nightwish is, however, a scenery of my soul and I`m not ready to let go because of one person. A person who wants to focus her creativity to somewhere else, a person whose values don`t match mine.

We were never bothered by the fact that you didn`t participate in writing/arranging songs, you never in 9 years came to rehearse the songs with us before going to the studio. Not the fact that while on tour you always wanted to fly, separately from us with your husband. Not the fact that you are an undisputable front image of the band.
We accepted and felt ok about everything except greed, underestimating the fans, and breaking promises. It was agreed by the five of us that Nightwish would be the priority in everything that we do during 2004-2005. Still so many things were more important to you. The ultimate example being the already sold-out show in Oslo, which you wanted to cancel because you needed to rehearse for your solo concerts, meet frieds and go to the movies. Those were the words Marcelo used in an e-mail explaining the cancellation. This being just one example of so many. I couldn`t think of a worse way of being selfish and dismissing our fans.

Nightwish is a way of life and a job with many obligations. To each other and to the fans. With you we can`t take care of those duties anymore.

Deep within we don`t know which one of you drove us to this point. Somehow Marcelo has changed you from the lovely girl you were into a diva, who doesn`t think or act the way she used to. You are too sure of your irreplaceableness and status.

It`s obvious that you blame your stress and misery on us four. And you think we don`t respect or listen to you. Belive us; We have always had the uppermost respect towards you as a wonderful vocalist and as a friend. And very often during the past couple of years the plans were made according to your decisions only. You were always the only one who wanted more money from the shows.
This ”compensation and more money from everything” –attitude is the fact that we are most disappointed of!

We wish that from now on you will listen to your heart instead of Marcelo. Cultural differences combined with greed, opportunism and love is a dangerous combination. Do not wither yourself.

This decision is not something we are especially proud of but you gave us no choice. The gap between us is too wide. And the decision is made by us four unanimously. We are beyond the point where things could be settled by talking.

All the best for your life and career,



Tuomas



Emppu Jukka Marco


Ps. This is an open letter for everybody.

WHY DOES SE KEEP TEASING US??? -punches Nomura n the face- RELEASE THE F*CKING GAME!!!!!

Bah, I actually can't wait 'til KH II is released in Japan... I love spoilers XD

By the way, DH, am almost done my BHK picture. Don't know if I'll colour it. Maybe I'll try and photoshop it -shrugs- It'll be called "Connection Obsession." Heh.

Got this from Ashe's LJ. Did you maket it up, or get it from someone else? It's neat-o

Fifteen years ago I was:
- 2 yrs old
- Running like a fucking animal XD Christelle knows
- Naive and innocent. Trying to make friend with whomever
- Chilling with Christelle, playing silly games
- etc....

Ten years ago I:
- 7 yrs old
- was in grade 2...I think
- Cut my chin open on the ice and got stictes
- Started playing soccer with Christelle

five years ago I:
- 12 yrs old
- couldn't wait to be thirteen!
- wanted to start my period 'cause all my friend had it and I didn't (wow, I was lame!)
- was in...gr. 7?
- had N 64

one year ago I:
- 16 yrs old
- was feeling down on myself
- had ups and downs with anorexia
- was in gr. 11


yesterday I:
- got up at 6:30 AM and worked out
- went to school
- did my homework and study notes
- chatted online
- read "Destiny"
- watched TV
- Was going to go to Stef's, but decided to stay in

Today I:
- got up at 9 to eat breakfast and watch TV
- went online to read "Secrets of Memories"
- drank...COFFEE
- am going to go to dance

Tomorrow I will:
- try and sleep in
- work out

Snacks I enjoy:
junky stuff...I KNOW I SHOULDN'T -cries-


What would you do with 100 million dollars:
What wouldn't I do? Probabaly put away a lot for school and to just save up in general...buy my own car, my own house...umm..GO TO DISNEY WORLD!!!!!!! And probabaly give away to charities I'd want to support like Breast Cancer Researcher, AIDs support, etc

things i would never wear:
-slutty stuff
-hooker boots
-hmmm...dont know what else


5 bad habits:
-anorexic tendancies
-cracking my knuckles
-being to tense
-stressing out over nothing and being emo
-cracking my back

5 biggest joys:
-being with my friends
-feeling my best
-dance
-being happy
-......

5 favorite toys:
-all my stuffed animals!
-does PS2 count???
-my lion king toys!!!!!
-my baily kangaroo
-...hmmmm

Who is Nobody, you ask? They are the Non-Existant Ones


http://www.gametrailers.com/player.php?id=975&type=wmv&f=1


Just clips of DD/ASAS again. Bu ITZ TEH SHIZ WIF EVANESCENCE MUZIK!!!!!

Anywho, nothing new. School is stressing me out majorly. Seriously. I had a nervous breakdown the other night. It was so stupid. Whatever. I'm sure there'll be many more to come, so don't worry. Heh.

DH: I'll try and post in the RB's! Have been so busy! STUPID SCHOOL! God damn

I don't
I don't know why
In your boys life you become like a bull
Like a bull in a china shop
Smash it up into smithereens

There you, there you go again
Breaking breaking porcelain
Is that all I am just a doll you got used to
We've done, we've done this before
As Mars sauntered through his door
Don't say it's time to say
Goodbye to Pisces
Goodbye to Pisces

I cried and I washed my tears
That turned into diamond
Ice into ice and if it could freeze
My heart wouldn't float away

There we, there we go again
Breaking breaking porcelain
Is that all we are just a doll we got used to
We've done, we've done this before
As Mars sauntered through his door
Don't say it's time to say
Goodbye to Pisces
Goodbye to Pisces

So how how will I go
Back on back on the shelf
With a smile with a smile
To the customer and say
On sale by the owner

Here I
Here I go again
Breaking
Breaking porcelain
Is that all I am
Just a doll you got used to
We've done
We've done this before
As Mars sauntered through his door
Don't say it's time to say
Goodbye to Pisces
Goodbye to Pisces
Goodbye my Pisces

Goodbye Pisces ~ Tori Amos

[Keyblade Shards]: TMM, no more
kikingdomhearts dances
[Keyblade Shards]: -yanks on chain-
[kikingdomhearts]:
[JenovaDOWNFALL]: Shut up muffinman.ZIm trying to teach?
[silh0uette]: Teavching fails it.
[silh0uette]: teaching*
[rikusgal]: i can learn
[Keyblade Shards]: -stares at Silh-
[.:KL:.]: Rick may like theater, and look like Harry Potter, but he took Terri out with one punch. That's
impressive, Terri out weighs him by at least 70 pounds, but one punch and a well placed slab of cement later,
she is out. You can't argue with results like that. Bonus points for his mother, who has an accent so crazy
she constantly sounds like she is a drunk trying to disguise her voice while making a prank phone call.
[JenovaDOWNFALL]: Yeah!thats the spirit!
[Themuffinman]: Well she is....all she's does in the chat is yell random stuff and screem 'Ahhh" for aobut 5
lines of text, then she yells something like "If your w whore, i'll teach you to dance'
[Keyblade Shards]: KL, are you like the number 1 Degrassi fan?
[Keyblade Shards]: TMM, don' we yell a bunch of random stuff here? I mean, look at KL
[The Lounge]: Hollow Bastion has left at 6:18 pm
[JenovaDOWNFALL]: Im so happy, and i didnt say ill teach if ur a wore!im teachin her so i csan beat her!
[Themuffinman]: http://forums.khinsider.com/showthread.php?t=30138 <------- this is extremely pathetic.....
[.:KL:.]: LIBERTY GETS PREGNANT ON DEGRASSI BY JT'S HALF INCHER WHICH WAS USING A KING
SIZE CONDOM THAT SLIPPED OFF
[rikusgal]: o gee thanx
[The Lounge]: Ryu has left at 6:18 pm
[rikusgal]: lol
[Themuffinman]: KL...wow....
[silh0uette]: "im teachin her so i csan beat her!"
[kikingdomhearts]: ????
[JenovaDOWNFALL]: Yeah.its fair
[kikingdomhearts]:
[silh0uette]: Someone didn't get that, I see..
[kikingdomhearts]: *yawn*
[rikusgal]: god i feel so speacail....
[The Lounge]: Mikail has left at 6:20 pm
[Keyblade Shards]: KL, I hope that when day when you... "you know"... you get one that fits
[.:KL:.]: Spike is Emma's mother. She later went on to marry Snake. Then the two of them had a child. I don't
remember if it's a boy or a girl. Maybe it's both, who knows. That's about all that Spike has done on the show.
She is the best kind of adult character, because they never show her.
[JenovaDOWNFALL]: U get that feeling when ur around me
[The Lounge]: LordMune has entered at 6:20 pm
[Themuffinman]: For KL's half-incher *coughXDcough*
[Keyblade Shards]: *one day
[The Lounge]: key111 has left at 6:20 pm
[silh0uette]: I fail to feel any feeling whenever I'm around you.
[kikingdomhearts]: hello lord
[JenovaDOWNFALL]: I nou.is lust any one of them
[Keyblade Shards]: Hey, LM
[Themuffinman]: KL you sohuld watch the original Degrassi Jr. High form the 80's XD
[JenovaDOWNFALL]: Is setharoth comin?
[Keyblade Shards]: KL, are you happy that the Lion King World is in KH II?
[.:KL:.]: You have a pegina tmm and ur pegina could never compare to my size
[.:KL:.]: OH HELLZ YEAH KS
[.:KL:.]: I hate the episode "Holiday"; it features too many adults and not enough scenes of Craig having sex
with various women. Joey is the focus of "Holiday", so I hate him.
[rikusgal]: want me to invite him?
kikingdomhearts goes back to be a quiet un seen person in the chat
[Keyblade Shards]: O_O
[The Lounge]: MegaFlare has entered at 6:22 pm
[Themuffinman]: STFU KL

Here's a song a wrote little less than a month ago and I've been toying around with it. No matter what, I can't come up with a chorus that fits, so it's chorusless -growls- I shall come up with one soonies!

Anywho, here it is: Enjoy!

*STEAL MY FUCKING LYRICS AND I'LL SUE YOUR ASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY'R EMINE! THEY BELONG TO ME!*

Comfort Level

You look at me and ask,
"Why?"
But you can't even begin to understand
Not when I see the look in your eyes
You already think I'm broken
Nothing I can say will change your mind
When I'm treated like a sick little girl
There's no room for me to get well.

Could I borrow your eyes?
So I could see what you see?
Maybe you could do the same
Step in me for a while
How long are you willing to stay?
Betchya' ithin' to get out
Don't apologize;
I'm not surprised
I can't even find comfort
In my own skin

After all these years of running-
Running away
I realize there's no escape
Dogging my own tail
My shadow sticking with me 'til the end
There's nothing I can do but face the God-aweful truth:
You can't take me away from me.

Now....if only I could find a chorus! BAH

Alright, so I had been wantinf to go to Texas Road for a looooooong time. For those who don't know, Texas Road is this road where, at the end, is a path through the forest that leads to a graveyard at the very, very end. So, Stef, Christelle, Bre, KT, and myself went. No guys. We drove there, got out and headed down the path. Only thing we didn't know is that there was another path. Anyways, it was around 7:45 PM when we hit the trail. It was alright, but I was shaking like hell. It wasn't all too scary at that point, because it was still relatively light outside, but I felt cold and the noises the bugs and stupid animals made scared me. I was also pysching myself out, expecting something. About 10 minutes later we reached the graveyard, which was small as hell, and it was still light outside. We weren't scared, and thought I was pretty lame, so Stef called her cousin, who'd been there before, to ask where all the scary stuff was. Apparently we had to go back to where I parked my pimpin' white van, and there was another path that lead into the woods. So by the time we headed back it was starting to get darker, and I was becoming more, and more scared. We reached the van and it was pitch black. We found the path and it scared the shit out of all of us. You had to go down into the forest, in this path, and walk until you got to a broken bridge, or something. It took us forever to work up the courage to walk into there, and we didn't take more than ten steps until we stopped. Posted on a tree was some white paper/sign, with a red dot in the middle. We were fucking freaked! So we ran back onto the main path, then turned around, contemplated whether or not to try and go back. We were about to when I glanced something out of the corner of my eye. It was sort of white, with a blueish tint and was slowly making it's way towards us. I said "Guys, there's something there," but they dismissed it, thinking I was seeing things. But then I insisted, "Guys, there's a fucking person over fucking there!" So, we all looked and froze; sure enough we saw something white coming towards us. So what do five girls, alone in the woods do? We fucking bolt to the van, wrench the doors open and take off. I've never been so scared in my enitre life. Well, Christelle says she doesn't think it was a person; she thought it looked like a pole, and everyone agreed that maybe we were pysching ourselves out, and that we turn back to see. I reluctantly agreed to go back, but I wouldn't dare get out of the van. So Christelle, KT, and Stef got out to look, while Bre stayed in thecar with me. About 3 minutes later, they come running back with the confirmation that there was definately someone/something there. They said it was someone wearing white, who was moving strangely and waved to them. We bolted for the last time, but with the promise we'd one day go back.

Well, after that traumatizinf experience -for me- we went to Boston Pizza, got a small pizza, and appetizer and a dessert. BINGE! BINGE BINGE BINGE! I wanna puke my guts out and never eat again. But I know if I stop eating Kristina wont let me dance. I'll find a way. I'll take drugs, or something to give me the energy I need. I can't do this "getting well" thing anymore, as I have no control.

All in all, an exciting night.

You don't remember me, but I remember you.
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you.
But who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do...

I believe in you
I'd give up everything just to find you.
I have to believe in you
To live - to breathe
You're taking over me.

Have you forgotten all I know and all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you and touched my hand.
I knew you loved me then.

I believe in you
I'd give up everything just to find you.
I have to believe in you
To live - to breathe
You're taking over me.

I look in the mirror and see your face -
If I look deep enough.
So many things inside that it's just like you are taking over...

I believe in you
I'd give up everything just to find you.
I have to believe in you
To live - to breathe
You're taking over me.

- Taking Over Me ~ Evanescence

Whoa! Sorry I havn't updated since the dinosaurs went extinct, but I was gone in Florida for a week (will get to that in a minute!) then, the day before I come back home, I discover that my gay-ass IMac decided to crash on itself. Who's surprised? Not me. So, it was off getting fixed for a week. Got it back two nights ago. Was very VERY happy to get my computer back, but then I was reminded it was a shitty IMac, so the joy didn't last long. My mom says that Livey and I should ask our grandparents for a new computer for us to share. My thoughts on this: Heck yes! My dad will probabaly pout and say it's a waste, but his decision in getting an IMac was a waste. Sure, they don't get viruses, but that's because no one needs to make a virus for a Mac as they crash on themselves!

-_-;;

Anyways, time for me to tell you guys what I've been up to lately. Hope you're not bored to tears.... like I care XD. Well, like I had mentioned before I was in Florida for a week to visit my cousin Zoe. I am TERRIFIED of plane rides, so my mom gave me some pills to take on the flight. Knocked me right out, lol. Am very glad, but from what I can remember the ride wasn't that bad anyways. Very smooth, actually. So, by the time I touch down in Florida my stomach is screaming at me; I havn't eaten for 6 hours! But not to fear, Zoe brings me back to the Jewish day-camp where we all head over to a place called Jaxsons to get ice cream sundaes. They were so good! However, I gobbled mine all up and eventually it caught up with me and I wanted to puke my guts out. Unfortunately I have shitty gag reflexes so I had to live with it. Well, for the next two days I helped out at the camp. It was basically a day care, with people around my sister's age who helped out with younger kids. I helped out with the kids who were under the age of two. They were so cute! When he camp was over I went back to Zoe's house, then we'd go out and shop. Seriously, that's what the trip consisted mostly of: shopping. My cousin is a sderious shopoholic and buys on impulse, only to later return the item she bought. It's really funny, actually. Poor Zo. If you can believe it, we didn't go to any beach. She was thinking of taking me to a Disney theme park, but it was five hours away and too expensive, so we went to Miami to do -can you guess?- SHOPPING! Am a little sad we didn't go to a beach, but whatever. I also saw a bunch of movies: The Fantastic Four, Bad News Bears, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory! When I left Florida is was both sad and happy at the same time. Was sad because hanging out with Zo was awesome, and I wish I could have seen more of Florida; but was also happy to get back home and see all my friends and family. The plane ride back was OK... didn't have any pills this time and the ride was a little bumpy. But I was smart this time and got some snacks on the flight. I, obviously, made it back safely.

Besides that, havn't done anything worth of interest. I've been waking up early and it's been pissing me off! I just don't get it. Fucking insomnia. Will have to take pills to ensure I sleep in, or end up in a coma, lol.

Also, my strength is returning and so is the weight, which is good. Have been going to dance classes again and it feels great. Wish my energy was up to where it should be, but I know I gotta take it slowly. So far, am going to dance at the Oireachtas and that is awesome!!!!!!! Woot!

Also - DH, have updated the RB, incase you're interested. -prods- Get. Dest. On!

That's all for now! Ta'

I GOT MY G2!!! WOOT WOOT! *does the I-got-my-G2 dance- I can now officially drive by myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEEHAW!

Alright, so my test was at 8:50 AM, and I had to be there at least half an hour early. So, my mom and I got there at about quarter after 8, and we just waited. I had to give them my liscense and my certificate, then we had to fill out my car's plate, what colour it was, etc. Then my mom and I pulled out to the back of the parking lot and waited. Oh man, was the waiting ever tough. As time progressed I got more and more nervous; my stomach kept tightening and I thought I was going to throw up. I was hoping for so bad that my tester would be a guy... but sadly (with my luck) it was a girl. AH! So, my mom left and with the chick intructor I pulled out of the parking lot and turned left. We drove for a bit, went down some streets and it was all alright until.... I HAD TO THE PARALLEL PARK! It took my so long to try and get it right +_+ I can't parallel park, let alone park that well. Well, after I got as best I could we went on. Making our way back, at an intersection she wanted me to turn right. I had a red light, but on an intersection you can creep out and turn right when you see no cars coming. Well, as I did this this bike came seriously out of nowehere! I thought for sure I was done... I thought I was fried. I wanted to cry so bad, and in my mind I kept thinking that it was all over. I failed! Was I ever shocked to discover I passed! She told me I had to be a better observer and that I had to work on my parking (like I didn't already know that, lol). As you can imagine my mom was very pleased. Still, I know she's going to be so much more nervous, knowing I can drive on my own. We're still going to work on parking and what-not, and we'll do more highway driving.

AM SO HAPPY!

Well, summer has been excellent thus far. I'm really starting to get back into the swing of dancing and my first competition will either be Windsor or Oakville. Probabaly Oakville.... Am going to go to Florida on July 28th to visit my cousin. She works at a Jewish day-camp, or something of the sort, and I'm going to help out there! I'm going to bring my dance shoes to try and teach the kids some Irish dance, but Zoe says they're lazy. Lol. We'll see... Am really excited to go there, and hang out with my cousin, but am very much afraid of the plane ride. I hate planes. Oh well. Wll take some drugs to knock me out on the trip there.

Last night I went to the mall with Alex to go to the Harry Potter Midnight Party at Chapters. Got there around 8:30, so we walked around so I could look for a gift for my dad. I got him the Gladiator, and because it was 2 DVD's for $30 I also got Kill Bill part 1. Was very happy. After, we headed back to Chpaters and he got me a green tea fappuccino from Starbucks. I asked for no whipped cream and he got upset at me and we almost had a "talk." I was a little ticked. He's not my therapist, and I know Alex doesn't think I'm trying to get better, but I am. Oh well. Thankfully we didn't have a "talk" and we walked around. There were a lot of activities there. They had a live owl, some potions, count the jellybeans, etc. We got our palms read by Professor Trelawny (LOL) and my palm said I'd gte married and divorced three times, that I'd have 2 kids, etc. I was a little scared, bt Alex reminded me that in the books Professor Trelawny is always wrong about her predictions and Sights (except for two!), and I had to remind myself she really wasn't a pyshcic and no one's future is written in stone. We met up with Rae and her sister Erin, and played some cards between the bookshelves before we had to get in line. Later on (still playing cards) Olivia Fraser, Kelsey, and the Moriarties showed up. They came into line with us and played cards. I got bored after a while (and of losing, lol) so I grabbed some ghost stories and read them. At 12:00 AM the book arrived and started to sell! It only took us about 20 minutes to reach the register, and on the way there I picked up a book called "A Great and Terrible Beauty." Ashley says it's a kick-ass book, so I'm really excted to started reading it. Anyway, I got home around 1:00 AM and fell asleep around 2:00.

What a way to spend a Friday Night. It was good, but I didn't have enough money to buy Harry Potter. Instead, while Alex drove me home I scimmed through the book and found out who died! AHAHAHAHAHAHA, I KNOW! It's so sad and tragic, and you'd never think it would end the way it did. Can't wait 'til I buy the book, but that will probabaly be after Florida, as I need to save up my money to spend there.

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.

Heh ^_^ Yup, am posting twice in the same day -dies-

Well, as you may, or may not, know I left for Nashville last Thursday for the huge dance competition there and arrived back home yesterday. What a weekend it has been!

Well, the dancing started on Friday. That day Kaitlyn, Andrea, and Leah danced. Didn't get to see Leah, as she was all the way in the other hall, but I got to see Kaitlyn and Andre. For their first time in Nationals, they looked OK. I helped Kaitlyn warm up, and both she and her dad were very appreciative. Like I said, both of them looked OK, but you could tell this was the first Nationals. Also, the politics are horrible in dance so, because they weren't "known", the judges didn't pay much attention to them. Well, I went to the mall while waiting for recalls (bought a tank and presents for Bre and Stef) and when I came back I found out the both Kaitlyn and Leah recalled! Andrea didn't and she and her family got ready to leave. Kristina wasn't too happy with how she handled it. Wanna hear something weird now? Well it turns out that some of the people who recalled in Kaitlyn and Andrea's competition shouldn't have recalled and vice-versa. Apparently they only counted the hard shoe round of the competition and not the softshoe. So, all the girls who hadn't danced their set dance was able to dance. Then, when awards were done, they let the girls who didn't recall pass through, and it turned out Kaitlyn didn't get the recall after all :( Talk about a letdown! But she hadnled it well.

Saturday Sarah and Rat danced. I only saw Rat do her soft-shoe. I watched my competition dance as well. Heather Adlam was in it. She looked so awesome in her new dress! Her dacning kicked major ass too. She ended up getting third! Woot woot! Anywho, didn't stay at the hall long, and headed back to the hotel to rest and work-out a bit. That night I went to the Grand Ole Opry with my dad and the Slawiks. At first, I thought it was going to be so stupid and boring, but it was actually pretty cool! The singing, even though it was country, was really good. They also had this comedian who was hilarious. I was surprised that I had a good time.

Sunday my sister danced. As per usual, she didn't want me near her, she didn't want me to help her, didn't want me to talk to her. Whatever. No offense, but Olivia, you can be sort of a bitch and it's hurtful because I just want to be there for you, and you're so short with me. Then you wonder why I'm so short with you. Anyways, getting off topic. Because I wasn't allowed" to help Olivia -at all- I helped Katie and Sarah with their steps. Watched Olivia and the girls dance. Livey's hard shoe started off so awesome, but then she slipped off her toewalks. Man, was she pissed. Her softshoe looked kick-ass though, and some lady commented to my mom and how good it looked. Went to the mall, to see if any stores in Detroit had this sweat-shirt I really liked in my size, and I bought a skirt from Guess for $5.19!!!! Yush! When I came back they did my sister's recalls, sadly she didn't recall. It wasn't fair! She danced so well. Livy took it well, though, she stayed and watched her competition and awards. Am proud of you. Well, while waiting for awards I went back to the hotel to work out some more.

Well, Monday we got home. Was so happy to be home. And...that's bought it!

F:

Your Beauty lies
in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.
You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even your
appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look
innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the same
time. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit of
everything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the
guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost a
different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know
exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. You
enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable you
are.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, Light
Tones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:
Half-smile

Gemstone:
Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Planet: Mars Hair
Color: Red Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"Appearances can be deceiving."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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So true!

you will be poisoned by your husband/wife because
they are having an affair with the neighbor.


How will you die?
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o_O How do you figure?


Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.


What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Neat.


Your inner soul is content with the way it is. In
general you are a very sweet, caring person!
You love to kick back and hang out with your
friends, but you also enjoy time by yourself to
read a book and catch up on your studies. You
love the wildlife and you can always seem to
make the day better. Your lover is the luckiest
man in the world because people like you are
rare to come across. You love life but always
still have your head in reality.


What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say?
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Yah, I think this one was wrong too.

~*~Result nr 1~*~


Your power is: Clairvoyance

Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.

Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.

What Power is Compatible With You?
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Sure!

Note: Am gunna be gone for a few days. Going to Nashville for Nationals. No, am not dancing -obviously. My sister is dancing, though, and so are a bunch of other people. Am excited, but also sorta nervous. A lot on my mind. See you all later.

Alright, sorry to you people who read my other entry (which was a friend's only one). I was just in "one of those's moods" and needed some serious venting. Man, sometimes it seems I only post when I'm majorly depressed or when I want to rant. I'm sorry if I sound like a drama-queen or an emo, poser-goth seeking attention. I swear I'm not! But thanks for you people who put up with me. I really appreciate you and your friendship. Love you all -huggles all-

Anywho, now for the major update:

EXAMS ARE OVER! Wootness! -does the "happy exams are over" dance- Man, seriously it feels like an enormous weight was lifted off my shoulders. Sure, sure I still have another year of highschool left (the one that really counts!), but I feel so relieved! I had accounting on Wednesday, and man did I ever fly through it. First one done, thank you very much! It was a major joke. About 30 multiple choice questions, 5 easy-peasy transactions, a 10 column balance sheet, plus an income statement. Thursday I had the day off, as I did my food prep. exam the day before my accounting one. Didn't do so well, I think. We overcooked the pasta and no matter what my partner couldn't get the sauce right. Ah, well, Mr. Vettraino helped us out and said he loved it anyways. Kathy (my partner) and I wwre his favourites, because we worked really hard in the kitchen and with our other stuff, and we both went into the exam with 85%. I think we're OK. Friday was MATH! AHHHHHH! Actually...it was surprisingly easy. I feel so bad because the night before I was trying to talk to Simone on MSN to help me, but he wasn't there, so he came on Friday morning to help me! He's awesome. Well, anyways I know for a fact a definately passed that. Religion, which was today, wasn't even worth writing. Heh, but we had some drama going on before the exam. After Procyk, our short-term suuply teacher left, our real teacher came back. Everyone hates her because she's not Procyk. Man, they all love him and think he's so great, but really he's a moron who can't teach worth shit and has a super-huge ego. Anyways, the class treats her like shit and she usually puts up with it; but not today. Today, she told us to be quiet during our anthem and prayer, and of course hardly anyone was. So, she said he had to be quiet and if we weren't then we couldn't write the exam until we were quiet. Stupid Warren kept talking, asking why we were doing this, so Simone told him to shut up so we could write our exam. Well, Warren fougth back and threatening Simone, so Warren was sent to the office. Retard. Anyways, after that bit of drama wrote the exam. Definately aced it.

So, yup. That's 'bout it for exams.

Today and Alex and I hung out. It was a lot of fun, since I don't hang out with him as much as I did last year. It was great. Anyways, after he left I went to my sister's graduation. Yes, that's correct: tonight she graduates from grade school! It was her special day, today. Well, around 3:00 she got her hair done. It looked really nice. She got it all curly, with a tiara, and she got some bangs. Around 5:10 her friend picked her up in her dad's oldsmobile. It was cute, on the side of his they worte "Graduate or bust." lol! The graduation was alright. Not very long, thank God. Livey didn't win any awards, but that's OK. Still love her, I guess.

Awesome job, Livey! Can't wait for you to come to highschool!

I am Donnie, from "Donnie Darko." I'm
pretty troubled, yes.


Which Random Cult Movie Character are you?
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DisturbeD is your match. Broken inside, Abused,
Hopeless, Confused.
Your spirit's song is Numb


Which artist represents your soul? Which song your spirit sings?
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Your dark side is centered around Hopeless Faith. A
shattered broken heart holding its last breath,
searching for its salvation in a cold world.
All you want is a sweet loving heart, touchs
your hand and holds you in their arms,
prmoising you they will love you forever, so
you can feel that the whole world is revolved
around the both of you only, no more sorrow or
regret, just love. You will find what you want
when you believe in yourself and when you start
making your life with your own hands.


What is the center of your dark core? (updated)
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It's not that you fear death, you are just unsure
about it. You have no solid opinion of Death.
To you, death is just something that you should
try to avoid at all costs. Safety
first!






Do you embrace DEATH ?
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You will take lye by mistake. You seem to be a very
confused individual. Just make sure you read
the labels and signs everywhere.


What will be your Edward Gorey death?
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Hmm...you're an interesting character. You're one
of those types who can really 'be seen
through.' People will automatically know what
you're trying to say and/or what you're
feeling. The funny thing about you is that you
like to scare others sometimes. You may tend to
surprise them with an act or phrase. You could
be considered weird, yet fun. You are also
clever and perceptive =) Happy Halloween,
See-Through One.


What Halloween Figure Are You? (MANY RESULTS WITH SIX ALL NEW ONES!!)
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You are cutting


What Self-Mutilation Are You?
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Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange
darkness and sadness lurk about you.


What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infront of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.But little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.One more
thing never let that lost love one leave you
heart keep them in forever and keep their
memory alive.


If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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Got this from Trish -huggles-

write your fav 6 songs then pick 6 ppl that have to do it!

1) Ghost Love Score ~ Nightiwsh
2) Obsession ~ See-Saw
3) Imaginary ~ Evanescence
4) On the Wane ~ Sirenia
5) Beauty of the Beast(One More Night to Live) ~ Nightwish
6) You ~ Evanescence


1) Ashley
2) DH
3) Rey
4) Olivia
5) Sam
6) ....... Can't think of another one (Trish, I'd send it to you...but you already did it -dies-)